I want to share a very personal lesson God taught me about faith. This is an excerpt taken from a book I wrote about my personal testimony: Breaking out of Darkness: How I was set free from Depression, PTSD, and Dissociative Identity Disorder.

The part about faith happed in 2021 when my husband and I were battling through Covid. My husband ended up in the hospital on oxygen with double Covid pneumonia. I was also sick so I was not allowed to go to the hospital with him. The only way I could communicate with him was by phone when he felt like texting or calling. I had never seen him so sick in all our years of being married.

I just want to encourage you to hold onto God’s hand, no matter what you are facing or what your situation looks like! God is faithful.

“God started reminding me about the few days before we had gotten sick when He asked me if I trusted Him. As soon as He asked me I replied, “Yes Lord, I trust You with my life.” He then asked me if I trusted Him with my family. That one gave me pause and I really had to think it through because I did not want to answer dishonestly. Finally, after some thought, I told Him that I trusted Him with my family because I knew that He loved them more than I ever could. They are His children and His plans are perfect. In the next few moments, I learned what faith really is. I thought I knew, but I learned what true, real, abiding faith is. He showed me a vision that I will do my best to describe. In the vision I was standing in a dark room, so dark I could not see my hands in front of my face. I did not know what would happen when I tried to take my next step. I could step into a hole, I could trip over things in my way, I could go the wrong direction. Here is where faith steps in. God reached out His hands for me to take hold of. I put my hands in His and told Him that even if I did not know where He was leading me I trusted Him. Prior to getting sick I had been praying for more faith and it was in that moment I knew what it meant to truly trust in the Lord. My life verse for years has been Proverbs 3:5-6 and for the first time in my life I knew what it was to not lean on my own understanding but to trust God with all my heart. I did not know what direction our lives were going to take, but I did know that no matter what, I was in the palm of God’s hand and I fully trusted Him. Of course, I wanted Ronnie healed and home, but I knew in my heart that no matter what happened in my life God was holding my hand and Ronnie and I were both His children. Faith is choosing to trust Him even if we do not know if things are going to go the way we want them to and telling Him that no matter what happens we trust His plan. I am not saying in any way that God caused us to get sick, but I do know that He can, and often does, use what the enemy meant for harm and turns it around for our good. I fully know that He used this situation to teach me about faith and what it really looks like to trust Him in every situation no matter what it looks like.”

Blessings,

Nichole Henson

Fullness of Joy Ministry