Resharing from 2023 (From my Facebook acct.)

I was hit really hard this week with pain in my back. I am still not sure exactly what happened, but I do know it had a spiritual battle element. The demons always notice when we are down and they come running to kick us even if they are not the cause of the original battle. They may or may not be the original cause, but it doesn’t matter to them. They watch us and know when we are weak and facing difficult situations.

I heard the enemy gloating and saying, “why isn’t your God healing you?” The question was meant to bring doubt and to create a wall between God and me. That is always the goal of the demons-to separate us from God.

I spent time in prayer each day and I also verbally praised the Lord. I wanted the enemy to hear me praising my God no matter what they situation looked like.

Last night while in prayer the Lord began to bring back so many memories of things He has laid on my heart to teach. Such as looking for the lessons to learn through difficult situations, holding on to Him no matter what we are facing, not letting our situations dictate who He is, walking by faith no matter what we are walking though, the importance of prayer, and so much more.

I was able to fully surrender the pain to God and I just asked Him to teach me anything that I need to learn in this season. I am still processing and not sure everything that is in this lesson, but I do know that I woke up about 80% better than when I went to sleep.

For most of this past week my pain level has been at about an 8 out of 10 when I sit, lay, try to breathe, or even move. When I stand it would go to about a 10. I was at the doc office 2 times, and the ER once. The visits left more questions than answers, but praise the Lord today I am so much better.

This entire situation is a reminder for me that He is God no matter what life throws at us. Nothing changes His character. Even in the valley of pain and despair we either accept Him as our God or not. He cannot be the God of our mountain top experiences and not our God in the valley because if we live life that way He is not really our God at all.

For me I am all in. He is my God and I am here to do what He has called me to do. I refuse to be shaken. I refuse to allow the enemy to bring doubt about my Father. It doesn’t mean I don’t have trials, tribulations, difficult situations, or moments of weakness because I have all of the above.

One day this week I was in tears calling out to God telling Him I was at the end of my ability to handle this situation and that in my strength I could not take the pain. In that moment I saw that I had been trying to do it on my own and that was never the plan. We were not created to do anything on our own. We were created with a need for our Creator.

I repented for not leaning on Him and trying to do anything on my own-for trying to be strong in my own strength. He is made strong in our weakness. Weakness is not a negative thing. It is a the most powerful thing because when we are weak He is strong. His strength is so much greater than ours. It is all about surrender in every area and every situation we face.

God has brought me to far for me to start doubting Him now. Thank you to everyone who has been praying for me! I truly appreciate each and every prayer.

I want to encourage you to call out to God. Whatever you are facing He is your strength. He loves you and if you are hearing any voices that are saying He doesn’t that is a lie from demons. Command them to be silent, to leave in the name of Jesus, and then run into the arms of your Father. Maybe some repentance is needed. I know it was for me, but He is a gentle and loving Father. Maybe some surrender is needed. It was for me! Whatever you have need of it is only found in God. He is the one and only answer. You will not find it in yourself and you certainly will not find it in the world. Our Creator has all we need.

Blessings,

Nichole Henson
Fullness of Joy Ministry